Monday, July 26, 2004

just another survey

First job: none
First screen name: dancinqueenrocks
First self purchased cd: dont remember
First funeral: none
First piercing/tattoos: Ears
First credit card: dont have one
First true love: zack dlin
First enemy: tiffany
First concert: none
First musician you remember hearing in your house: the doors
First kiss: 1st grade andrew
First relationship: 1st grade andrew

LASTS
Last big car ride: couple weeks ago
Last kiss: kevin
Last library book checked out: somethin about elizabeth taylor.. never returned
Last movie seen: the notebook
Last beverage drank: water
Last food consumed: chocolate ice pop
Last phone call: katie
Last cd played: random songs
Last annoyance: the boys next door wouldnt listen
Last soda drank: orange soda
Last ice cream eaten: chocolate
Last time scolded: today at the swim club.. it was minor though
Last shirt worn: blue plain teeshirt
Last website visited: blog!!
Last relationship: me n kevin

YES or NO
You keep a diary: blog
You like to cook: sometimes
You have a secret you ave not shared with anyone: OH YES

CURRENT HAIR COLOR: BROWN
EYE COLOR: HAZLE BLUE
BIRTHPLACE: BILOXI, MISSISSIPPI

IN THE LAST 24 HOURS, HAVE YOU
Cried? no
Helped someone? yeah
Bought something? no
Gotten sick? no
Gone to the movies? Nope
Gone out for dinner? no
Said I love you? yeah
Written a real letter? no
Talked to an ex? uhuh
Missed an ex? uhuh
Written in a journal? thisone
Had a serious talk? no
Missed someone? uhuh
Hugged someone? uhuh
Fought with your parents? no
Fought with a friend? uhuh

Posted at 08:10 pm by sunkizzed
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THE CLAMPETS!!!

WOOH! ELLY MAY AND GRANNY.. THEYRE SEXY PEOPLE..lol so. my world almost came to an end.. then mr sun, sun, mr golden sun: he shone on me.. i must be loved.. now my heart is happy and my bells are jinglin ( the ones in my pocket at christmas time ) i love everyone!! especially katie.. and jeff and i dont no y im a meanie pie,t ara.. id really like to no.. if ud like to tell me..if not.. then our relationship will never mend.. u have to share ur feelings.. like i did with katie.. HA HA HA. i do not nor will i ever.. have lesbian feelings for any of my CLOSE CLOSE friends.. i mean dont get me rong.. I LOVE ALL OF U..but not that way.. BUT IF ANY OF U HAVE LESBIAN FEELINGS FOR ME.. DO TELL.. I MEAN ID LOVE TO NO..wowo!! im hyped up.. yeah so i dont have anything to say.. i love everyone and everything and ims o happy cuz andrey isnt moving till the end of AUGUST!! hes got time for more massages!! lol.. im gna go.. but i love u all and to all a good night ( or day or evening)

lOve : heather
mUsic: bye bye boyfriend - Fee Fee ? Dobson

HAVE YOU EVER...
x. Gotten in a fight with your pet: yeah,we fight because he purrs to loud and my dog wont go lay down!!( or stay out of the kitchen )
x. Been to NYC: O YEAH
x. Florida: yesum.. lived there and went to disney
x. California: iin my dreams.. does that count?
x. Alaska: o hell no
x. Hawaii: i wanna!
x. Mexico: no..:-(
x. Canada: nahh.
x. Dreamed something really crazy and then it happened the next day: cant say i have
x. Had an imaginary friend: yeah.. when i was like 6
x. Red or blue: red..FIRE..LOL
x. Spring or Fall: spring.. not to hot.. not to cold..
x. Are you bored: no.. im talkin to katie andrey and jeff .. how could i be?
x. Last noise you heard: crickets
x. Last time you went out of the state: couple weeks ago
x. Things you like in a girl/guy: good personality, nice eyes, not to chubby, NOT A LIAR!!
x. Do you have a crush on someone: YES
x. What book are you reading now: THE LOVELY BONES
x. Worst feeling in the world: rejection
x. What is the first thing you think when you wake up: what time is it
x. How many rings before you answer: 2 or 3
x. Future daughter's name: katie
x. Future son's name: andrey
x. Do you sleep with a stuffed animal: no
x. If you could have any job you wanted, what would it be: to sit,and make money,andbe happy and make money from being happy
x. Are you a lefty, righty or ambidextrous: 2nd one
x. Do you type with your fingers on the right keys: uhuh
x. What's under your bed: dust
x. Favorite sport to watch: hockey baby!!
x. Current Age: 14 and 4 months
x. Siblings: Emmy and Joshua and DeeDee and Joey
x. Location: definately goin.. dont no wehre
x. Piercings: 2 on each ear

EXTRA STUFF
x. Do you do drugs: hell no
x. Do you drink: a few sips..here and there
x. Who is your best friend: katie and mo
x. What kind of shampoo and conditioner do you use: VO5
x. What are you most scared of: losing my bffs
x. What clothes do you sleep in: shorts and a shirt
x. Who is the last person that called you: mo ?
x. Where do you want to get married: on a beach
x. Who do you really hate: dont hate APPRECIATE..
x. Favorite number: 13 or 9
x. Been in love: yeah </3
x. What type automobile do you drive: none.. underage
x. Are you timely or always late: mostly timely-
x. Do you have a job: no...
x. Do you like being around people: yes..
x. Best feeling in the world: being told ur pretty..( lol jeff )
x. Are you for world peace: sure
x. Are you a health freak: no..
x. Have you ever loved someone you had no chance with:O YEAH.. I DO NOW
x. Have you ever cried over something someone of the opposite sex did: O YEAH
x. Do you have a "type" of person you always go after: nope
x. Are you lonely right now: yeaah :(
x. Ever afraid you'll never get married: yeah
x. Do you want to get married: YEA
x. Do you want kids: YES
FAVORITE
x. Room in house: MINE
x. Type(s) of music: all of em
x. Band: blink 182
x. Memory: summer of '03
x. Day of the week: Friday
x. Color: lime green
x. Perfume or cologne: cool water
x. Month: march-- my bday month

Posted at 07:05 pm by sunkizzed
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Wednesday, July 21, 2004

get on the flo...

omg.. things have been so cryzee... especially with andrey.. hes pissed at me cu i was tlakin behind someones back.. when he does it too.. but that ok i love him and hes really cool..we saw him and kevin running last night..(me n katie) and now im just updating and talking online.. i found a really cool song for katie when andrey moves.. and we have to buy the new avril cd..its got really cool songs and stuff.. so katie and bradley are doing GREAT/... and im so glad theyre together..REGARDING MY LAST ENTRY::::: there is no male species in my life at the moment but if u would like to be a part of it..JOIN THE CHOO CHOO ON ITS NEXT TRIP AROUND..lol im sorry.. it was the kid kyle from my bus but i dotn LOVE him hes just a really cool friend.. so thats that.. thyres not much to say at the moment except ...THIS:

Sex.
are you a virgin? I DONT NO.. AM I??-- hell yeah babe
if not, how many sex partners have you had? --
are you straight? sometimes..lol yeah
if so, have you ever fantasized about the same sex? hhmm..NOPE.cant say i have
in your opinion, where is the ideal place for sex? somewhere ALONE and private
what is the dirtiest thought you've ever had? well.. ull have to find out wont u?

Drugs.
have you ever gotten high? no..
have you ever gotten drunk? uhh.. NO
how often do you drink alcohol? not alot.. a few sips..nothing bad bad to the bone
what is the last thing you smoked? FISH
have you ever experimented with illegal drugs? NO BABE!! HUGS NOT DRUGS!!
if so, what were they? -- prozak!!

Posted at 10:02 am by sunkizzed
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Monday, July 19, 2004

it happened to nancy

hey guyz ive been gone for along time i no.. dont be sad.. just be happy that im back.. and hey guess wut.. IM BETTER THAN EVER FOR SUMMER THIS YEAR THE HEATHERS HERE!! lol i no so gay but i thats how i feel ... MERRY AND GAY!! lol dont ask y.. there isnt a reason.. well it could be that i got my hair cut and im gettin a whole new room soon and i got a whole bunch of new clothes.. OR IT COULD BE I SAW WILL SMITHS BOOTY!!..lol when i was in Conn. i saw i, robot with my cuz marc.. i went shopping alot.. and i had lots of fun.. i love **** lol.. lately ive been realyl in to *four star* and i dont no.. but i think hes got sumthin for me to.. i havent talked to him in a while though but when i did talk to him there was a TOTAL connection.. u no?? and it was like i could just like make out with him where ever.. and he was soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo adorably cute and funny.. and there was definaltely trust between us.. u no? and he made me feel so special and beautiful.. ha ha becca u dont no who it is.. no one nos who it is actually... and im not gna tell till me n him get closer and i want to make sure that me n him definaltey have something there b4 i get serious or anything u no? hes differant.. and i no all grls say taht but this time its really true..u no.. this year has been really hard on me ESPECIALLY WITH THE GUYS..u all no wtu im talkin about.. the best guy that i had wuz kevin though.. he was the only one really that i culd talk to.. exept once i was talkin to doug adn got really emotional and cried.. but kevin was better.. and things didnt work well with us in a realationship but were good friends now.. so thats wut happeened with us.. then there was a phase i went through when i was trying to find myself.. i just decided fcuk the world.. im doin wut i want.. that didnt get me anywhere and hell.. i still dont no who i am..all taht got me was on my bed with a fist with my left hand and a razor/knife/anything sharp in the right...well enough with that.. u no wut.. the other day i was thinkin.. all my life i couldnt wait for my 13th bday.. i thought it would be the greatest day of my life.. this is how it was:
9:30 pm-MARCH 12- CANT SLEEP.. my dad comes in to tell em my cat that i had for 7-8 yrs just died
6:00 am -MARCH 13- wake up feelin itchy on my face.. I HAVE A RASH ALLLLL OVER IT...my mom covers it up lukely wtih make up but i thought i looked fake
-all 6hrs of school- i couldnt stop crying.. this was the worst bday ever.. -
-dinner time- b mill came over which brightened up my day and we had a good time..-
-dessert- we had family over and me n brian drank coffee.. he liked ALOT of sugar-
- the next day- I HAVE STRPT THROAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!

YEEEHHAA wasnt that the greatest bday EVER??
o well.. this yr is nga be better .. new freinds and clothes and attitude.,

l0ve : heather
musiq : jackies free-stylin

Posted at 08:49 pm by sunkizzed
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Thursday, July 08, 2004

katies asleep..

l0ve: heather
mus!c: crickets and katie rustling in the sheets

katies asleep. im not tired.. so heres some love quotes/ poem things i found while searching:

Like is to hurt
Love is to die
both are the same
both bring tears and lies

Any fool can make love
But only a special fool can fall in love

..all thats left are memories..
and id give anything for those memories to be real again...

True love is like looking for a shooting star,
you can search far and wide and may still never find it

My love for you isn't something I need to work at,
nor is it based on what you wear or how you do your hair.
I found it one day while walking; I just saw you, tripped and fell into it.

First love never dies it just fades away

Lonely

by Chris Georgiou ®

Sitting here by my pc
Staring at a static screen
My tear falls upon a key
It's all eerie and serene

No messages, no calls
My e-mail box is empty
The world has shut down
Solitude has overtaken me

There's nowhere to go
No person to tell
No one who cares
I'm trapped in hell

I hate this deja vu
My body is sore
My heart is crying
I can't take no more

Emotions are fierce
Anxiety and pain
Driving me crazy
Turning me insane

I despise this living hell
My life brought me here
Upon this overcast trail
Tears I bleed in fear

Leave me be God
Stop mocking me
Why are you doing this?
Must you torment me?

My eyes are sleepy
There's no one to hold me
My body needs to rest
I'm so cold and lonely

now im tired...zZzZzZz

Posted at 12:56 am by sunkizzed
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Wednesday, July 07, 2004

but i refuse to cry..

hey its the 7th.. and katies over.were talkin to people online and we went to DQ and then some guy wistled at us..lol we played mancala and i won.. ha ha ha..my sister wanted to help but we didnt want her bothering us..lol.. so nice right? me n kev broke up but it was for the best and i think i already told u that.. me n andrey are cool again and im moving into my new room soon!! after i get back from connecticut.. katies lying on my floor right now waiting to get online.. i took a really pretty picture of her b4 and sent it to like everyone..were talkin to moffett, joes freind.. and he is so cool..and tristan said that me n her werent bad..and moffett said that we were cute.. brain miller said that selena was fugly..lol..me n katie are probably gna go to the swim club tomorrow and were gna have lots of fun!! i dont got much to rite so illbe leavng u now..oh!!! and my mom is having a boy.. just incase u didnt no.. and also .. im not growing anymore!!! but i have to exercize!!! and eat healthy.. so i can be a twig!! (in my dreams).. oh and our last day of school next yr : JUNE 30th!! and i finished my summer reading already.. so if u need help and are reading the shakespeare stealer than call me.. u no the # and if u dont.. too bad- get it from someone who does...

l0ve : heather

^ hottness right? yeah i no!!
katie: yeah exactly...

Posted at 09:33 pm by sunkizzed
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Monday, July 05, 2004

a long vaca.. glad to be bakk

since the 1st of the month ive been in cincinatti ohio visiting family and it was great. i met my aunt lynn and uncle steve and my cuz jeremy and carissa (and her boyfriend who is by far the most gorgeous guy ive ever met- blonde hair- blue eyes- tall- and sooo sweet) we played spoons and pass the pig and i went to the cincy zoo and history museum which were both very cool. and we also went ...SHOPPING!!!!.. and so i bought lots of stuff.. me n andrey got into a fight inwhich im upset about because hes moving soon and i dont want things to end like this. me n kev broke up but we both knew it was for the best and that it would be better for us to be friends.. there was just that little part of the connection wire that was missing.. i no .. sounds gay.. but the first time around is always better.. i started readin the shakespear stealer for school and i did the word search.. im almost dont with the book.. it is so good!! i love it.. acutally it has alot of old english but u can understand it quite well once u get into it. i lost 6 pounds and counting... by next year i want to drop atleast a pants size and get a flatter stomach.. i gues sittin infront of the computer isnt gna help me do taht now is it.. im gna go cuz its past my online curfew and my dad told me to get off.. ill probably go read more.. i really like to see your comments so write wut u please..(nothing mean though.. or anonymous.. and nothing anonymously mean)

Posted at 08:31 pm by sunkizzed
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Saturday, June 26, 2004

is it in his eyes? Oh no you'll be decieved!!

hey babez im at katies updating were at her graduation party. family graduation party.. she jus ttold us about it and invited us.. we ate alot..well atleast me n katie did.. tara didnt eat anything.she threw out a peice of cake!! lol i would never do that... so me n cait arent freinds and i think that since mo's goin to south were not really gna be close and i have a feeling were gna slip away from eachother..sure its not the brightest ways to think of things but its the truth...anyway: on to better and happier things...katies goin out with bradley and its so great. i love them together..i dont really have anything to say..kaite got an I-POD for her graduation and its so cool. i didnt get anything..except $30 from tara and the outfit i wore for graduation was from my g-ma but hey its not a big deal..ok since everyone like is splitting up i just want to say one thing: everyone is complaining but maybe you should think about actually doing something if u care about these people so much. call them more often, hang out wtih them, and if theyre going to a differant school than ask them about their teachers and the people that are there and dont just treat them like a card and throw them in the discard pile of go-fish. these people were put in your life for a reason..wether it be just for happiness or maybe to help you realize something about yourself or the world around you, whatever the case just dont put them on the bottom of your to-do list for the day.. they should matter more because the other people are going to be around..as a wise person oce said: make new friends and keep the old: one is silver and the others gold. i think that poster in the nurses office is right. everything you need to know about life you learned in kindergarten

l 0 v e : heather
i <3 you kevin

Posted at 03:52 pm by sunkizzed
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Friday, June 11, 2004

at taras

heyy im at taras.. and im updating.. today was a boring day at school.. it felt like a monday cuz the atlantic club was yesterday..omg the kid with the best body who every girl in the world( or atleast at bayshore) was talking about....PETE GALLAGHER..wooh baby.. talk about surprising.. i thought he was hot playing the guitar WITH CLOTHES ON..o well.. so today was boring and me n tara saw this reallly hot blonde guy at fratellis and then this other guy with brown hair.. i think his name was matt or sumthin.. i dunno.. we had pizza.. and i had some calzone.. MY FISH ARE GREAT!!! just updating u on their health..jk..today my love talked to me OUT OF KNOW WHERE... steve riley.. he came to his locker and was like hi.. and i said hi back.and he goes how are you.. i said fine ( which i thought was really weird because he USUALLY doesnt talk to me or even starts a conversation with me) like if i say hi to him he gets all weird but anyway.. so we were talking about something and i said no u hate me.. and he goes i dont hate u.. and i said yeah i know.. were JUST (emphasize the just) friends.. and he looked at me and said wuts that supposed to mean.. like not mean or anything.. so then i looked at him and said you know what that is supposed to mean.,. but when i looked at him it wasnt like a regular look.. like i was really weird.. cuz he looked better than usual and i was on cloud 9 for a few sec. then i came back to earth.. and i was like "woah hes gorgeous" then i was talking to tara nd i told her how i should call him and ask him if he wanted to hang out but i SURPRISINGLY forgot hhis phone number.. lol.. so thats my life... we had icecream b4 and then a nut was in my shirt and i was like theres something in my shirt and then i wqas like ok it was just a peanut... and tara laughed like a moose...lol.. no.. im jk .. we saw a diseased raccoon and we felt so bad... it almost got hit by a car..--tear--..im back now.. lol .. doug shaved his head.. he looks gay again.. nothings really changed in that area.. but my psychologist thinks brain miller has a crush on me cuz he hates every guy i like or go out wtih ( unless i like him..which i do) and we flirt alot.. like yesterday we had this huge splash fight in the pool and he started it.. yeah so im gna hang with him tomorrow.. thats it im gna go do something else now.. and ill try to update tomorrow...O I GOT NEW THUNDERWARE!!! lol smackdaddy and the petunias..me n tara are becoming so close now its so coolioliolio.. lol i have aq little song for u guys to read..
- bed bed swine...be thankful to geeeeese- ( to the tune of red red wine...)

tara was here.

Posted at 06:25 pm by sunkizzed
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Monday, June 07, 2004

my weekend

ok.. this is how it started.. friday was the luau .. i was single..and it was great.. then in the beginnign of the luau i started going out with nick.. again.. i thought maybe it would be differant.. you know? so then I HAD THE GREATEST TIME..him and i danced.. we kissed.. it was fun.. later that night i went to the st. joesephs fair with my sister and my dad.. it was ok.. then on saturday nick called me... my mom answered and didnt let me talk to him.. then 3 sec later bradley called from the same number and wanted to talk to me.. because nick was there.. my mom wouldnt give me the fone for that either.. that day i went fish shopping and got some fish.. and i was so excited.. i got a black moor (rocky) a weird type of goldfish (Fabio) a chinese fighting fish (ozzy) and a calico gold fish (howey).. the guy at the store said the fighter fish would be fine in the same tank with the others so thats wut we did.. we put them together.. then sunday i went on a "date" with my dad and we saw harry potter .. i liked the movie and we had a great time but before that jesse had called me.. which i thought was strange because he doesnt like me very much but of course.. it was for nick.. he toilde me nick didnt think we should go out anymroe.. which didnt bother me very much.. then after the movie i get to my grandmas house and im watching clueless when my mom comes in and says wuts the name of your fish again? and so i told her an she told me fabio had died.. GREAT!! i started crying and we figured it was just the fish.. then i wake up thismorning and the black moor is dead.. so i told mydad and he said that it was because of the fighting fish.. so hes taking him back today and getting me antoher balck moor.. another goldie fish.. and something else... my weekend sukked.. but i looked the best i had ever looked in my life.. so bakk to nick.. no more with him.. i swear.. too much pain caused from him and too much stress to go through...i have my friends and im going to make the best of the 3 weeks we have left here at bayshore..omg i just sighned online and kevin is on!! i love him so much.. seriously..well im gna split now but ill update tommorrow...i love kevin..<3 o and im sorry i bored u with my fish story...

Posted at 06:37 am by sunkizzed
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