Saturday, August 21, 2004
heres how things have been going for me lately...after the whole nicole becca lie went down becca found out it wasnt true and she apologized.. i didnt accept and i dont want to talk to either of them again.. maybe becca ill talk to one day but nicole has lost ALL of my respect.. becca still cant understand y she would lie like that and neither could i cuz she lost mroe than me.. she lost jeff kevin andrey and me.. so w/e.. ive had the worst cramps since 2 days ago.. and today clifford comes along..he greeted me with something like this: HONEY IM HOME!!.. not a very happy entrance for me id say but..its life.. SO today.. i cleaned my bathroom..WHICH WAS SOOOO MUCH FUN I ALMOST HAD A STROKE.. and i was watching the outsiders cuz it was on tv and forgot how old it was.. it was good though.. then i was watching shows like trading spaces and what not to wear.. which is a cool show! it gives u lots of tips about the right fashion for ur body.. and since my body isnt purfect i could use that show.. well now that ive had a lovely talk with nicole i think id like to assasinate every eighth grader who told her that i have alcoholic problems...UR ALL FAGGOTS WHOEVER U ARE..and i dont understand how soemone could think that i have alcoholic problems.. well whatever its over and done witha nd its not my loss.. so lately ive been listening to the song butterfly kisses because i havent herd it in a while and its my father and my song, so thats wut ive been doing.. so this is wut ive decided.. i really need to start watching my weight since im not getting taller. diabetes runs in my family and i dont want to end up like the rest of my family for certain reasons.. especially the heavyness. i know ive said this before but last night i really decided to after i had a full blown burst of tears.. the tears probably had to do with me getting my period becaseu sometimes i get very emotional but it really helped me realize that there are alot of changes i have to make in my life..i need to get my self esteem way up and i need to be happy more about myself.. i also need to portray myself better.. well right now im listening to becasue u loved me by celene dion adn its a really great song and im on the fone with nick.. and he bought me something.. a key chain with my name on it.. lol thats so sweet.. its just a friend thing..thats how he put it..
lOve: heather
feel!ng : kinda happy :-)
